Hmmm.........

Families with a LID (log in date) up to 10/24 received their referral yesterday. Congratulatons to those families! So what does that mean for us? Good question. I was hoping next month would be our month but like Colleen this month, I too feel we will miss it by just days and see Karlee's little face in May. Then maybe not, but who knows! Apparently, October 31st LID is very large, so will the CCAA make it to Nov 5th? I am not holding my breath. Our agency only has lid's for Oct 26 & 28 left, then its us....... Nov 5th! I am actually okay with one more month to wait for some reason. I guess I have gotten use to it and to be honest I am quite nervous and feel so unprepared!

In this batch of refferals, one couple like us(fairly young, no children) was referred a a 22 mts old toddler when they requested 6-12 old infant and are very dissapointed. My prayers are with them. This is something we have not really discussed. So this afternnon, I brought it to Duane's attention that there is a rare possibility that we too could get referred something quite different from what we requested...... even a boy! It has happened. I can understand the couple for being dissapointed, I would be too, to some degree. After the discussion, Duane and I both agreed we will accept whatever the good Lord refers us! Initally, I don't think I would be as dissappointed in a toddler girl referral than I would be a little boy! Before you bite my head off I am being honest and these are my true feelings. I would love the little boy no doubt but initally, I would be dissapointed. I have waited and dreamed for almost 2 years for a little girl whom I would someday watch dance, play dress up, gymnastics etc etc...! And true enough she may not ever dance or do gymnastics or play dress up! But these are fun dreams I have. I grew up with brothers, so to switch my dreams over to little league, football, dump trucks and muddy hands a feet will take me a few moments to regroup! Little boys are fun and cute as well, my nephew is proof!. When we filled out our request, I told Duane, I did not care boy or girl (I just wanted a baby/child) but he is the one that said he wanted a little girl, a daddy's girl to be exact! The point I am trying to make is that the couple who was referred an older child has every right to be dissapointed. I realize it is much easier to say this than to actually being faced with this situation. But after the intial shock we'd accept the referral and love and cherish that child like no other! That's my .02!